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medical stuff #???
SO we're back to this again.
Last week I had a CT scan on my liver, and speaking to the specialist today he confirmed the cancer is back and so we gotta treat it.
My chemo options this time are pretty shit, unfortunately. The drugs are harsher, which means more intense side effects like intense sensitivity to cold, possible nerve damage in my fingers, nausea, diarrhea, fatigue, light sensitivity, dry and cracked hands, hooray. And there's only a 30-40% chance that it will be effective.
So. Yeah I'm processing all that.
We're starting fast. I start chemo tomorrow and I'll have it every two weeks. I'm hoping I won't get all the side effects super bad, but who knows at this point. Definitely I'm going to be out for a lot of stuff, including rp. I'll still be around on plurk because that's something I can do without much stress.
I won't be talking about this on plurk. It feels weird to just plurk about "oh i'm dying of cancer" in the middle of people plotting stuff or having fandom chats, and really i don't even know how to talk about it half the time so it's just easier for me like this.
Again, I'll ask please don't pp me about this. I just don't have the emotional bandwidth to deal with it when it comes up unexpectedly, thanks.
So yeah. This sucks, but this is where life is for me right now.
Last week I had a CT scan on my liver, and speaking to the specialist today he confirmed the cancer is back and so we gotta treat it.
My chemo options this time are pretty shit, unfortunately. The drugs are harsher, which means more intense side effects like intense sensitivity to cold, possible nerve damage in my fingers, nausea, diarrhea, fatigue, light sensitivity, dry and cracked hands, hooray. And there's only a 30-40% chance that it will be effective.
So. Yeah I'm processing all that.
We're starting fast. I start chemo tomorrow and I'll have it every two weeks. I'm hoping I won't get all the side effects super bad, but who knows at this point. Definitely I'm going to be out for a lot of stuff, including rp. I'll still be around on plurk because that's something I can do without much stress.
I won't be talking about this on plurk. It feels weird to just plurk about "oh i'm dying of cancer" in the middle of people plotting stuff or having fandom chats, and really i don't even know how to talk about it half the time so it's just easier for me like this.
Again, I'll ask please don't pp me about this. I just don't have the emotional bandwidth to deal with it when it comes up unexpectedly, thanks.
So yeah. This sucks, but this is where life is for me right now.